14th Jul 2011
Thursday // 11pm // 1 year ago
Sometimes I feel as though I’m wasting my time everyday, Every moment…I feel stuck in limbo and I can’t shake the feeling that something bad is going to happen. I keep seeing that dog again…out of the corner of my eye…it scares me.
I’m scared that I might lose something…or maybe I already have.
I miss him, even though he’s the biggest reason of my depression. I feel guilty, yet relieved…I won’t have the chance to see him for five years….I want closure but what if I never get it?
I’m happy! Every time I look into your eyes I see the warmth, the security that I’ve thirsted for for all these years. Just sitting here watching you sleep fills me with this feeling that I’ve never felt before
…But you have no clue that I still cry, because Im scared…terrified That you’ll walk away